Commitment: What this blog actually means to me

March 4, 2012

This may end up being a lengthy post, but I just need to get this out. As I mentioned in my “intro” post, this blog is my third blog. In the past three years I have gone through two blogs (not including this one), and have always been super motivated to run them successfully, but end up succumbing to laziness and ….more laziness.

I hate to admit it, but I have a hard time committing to something. I had started a youtube channel during the summer of 2009 and showed signs of making it “big” – nope. My laziness took over and I honestly regret it. Because now there are so many other amazing youtubers out there that the subs that had easily come to me three years ago, don’t come across my new channel as easily.

I think I put too much on my plate. I want to achieve so much and have no clue where to start so I kind of start everywhere. I’m addicted to tumblr, twitter, youtube, and blogs. I’m fortunate that my coursework at university is not super time consuming or else I wouldn’t have time to catch up on everything.

I find tumblr and twitter easier to “commit” to than youtube and blogging. You can just keep on tweeting or reposting away, but it takes time to film and edit a video, or write a blog post. I always make an effort to make time once a week to catch up on the blogs I read, but I never do anything to my own.

So why am I rambling about this? Well, I decided to primarily focus and dedicated myself to this blog and my youtube channel. It is possible to motivate myself and overcome laziness. So that is going to be one of my New Year’s resolutions. I actually have a written list of my resolutions taped above my nightstand. Sure, it’s already March..but it’s never too late to set goals for yourself.

This post is really for myself, more than anyone else. It’s to remind me why I am here. I want to share my thoughts and creativity with the world. Most of the creativeness will be on my youtube channel, but posts over how I am feeling will be found here. As flippin’ corny as this sounds; blog, I will not let you down. (I won’t let myself down).

<3 Steph


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