January 1, 2016
December 31, 2015
(time to make a wish for the new year)
“This year had its up and downs, but was still a great year.”
“This year was great! Can’t wait for next what 2016 brings.”
“New year. This is the year I’ll get my act together.”
It seems people always express thoughts similar to those three before the clock strikes midnight. We are so close to ringing in 2016 here in Chicago. I know in many parts of the world 2016 has already begun, but as I listen to Backstreet Boys (#tbt), I reflect the events that went by this past year. 2015 will always be a memorable one to me. It was the year I graduated from university, worked my first fashion retail job, attended my first kpop showcase, and delved back into the world of Filipino showbiz fangirling. While it definitely had some major highs (fangirling wise, which I will save for a later post), it had some more personal downs.
Perhaps the most monumental event this year for me was graduating university. It really isn’t a joke when people say college goes by in the blink of an eye; it really does. Finishing school is such a wonderful feeling; you feel accomplished and proud of yourself. What comes after school is the overwhelming part.
“What do I do now?”
These are some scary kind of questions. Six months have gone by since I graduated and I still do not have a full-time job. As time goes by, the more I feel inadequate and unsure of my capabilities as a person in the workforce that I have yet to gain access into.
I have to constantly remind myself to change my mindset; things can only get better, right? The problem may be there is no specific time period where one realizes what exactly they want to do. Four years of undergrad education should not pose as a time limit, but it inevitably does. So my goal is to take all my strong interests and pinpoint exactly what I want to do. I’ve already started to do so in the past two months, and so the next step is to figure out exactly what to do once I’ve de-cluttered my puzzled mind. With a major in something so broad as Communication and Media, it opens so many doors to me – which may also be my problem. I do not know which direction to go towards.
My wish for 2016 is to finally understand what I want to do in life (hopefully within the next two weeks) and then work towards that goal.
I try to stray from including such personal feelings in posts, but this is a reflection. And perhaps, one individual may stumble across the post and will be able to relate and empathize with my feelings. I wish everyone a happy and wonderful 2016.
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